I know I have too many things going on for me.
And I can quickly feel like I am simply cannot meet all that is before me.
Mothering the five children…physical and emotional care is ongoing around here.
Managing a household…money, groceries, bills, upkeep etc
Moving the five children and myself to a new home.
Theater is starting up….rehearsals start to fill the afternoons and evenings.
Gathering with friends before school starts up.
Continued scheduling and money with the ex-mister.
Grief still hits at odd times but less frequently (so thankful!)
Oh, yeah, I’m to be building my own business.
My own care…exercise, social, rest.
Did I mention we are moving! ?
So to meet this seemingly daunting list. I eat cartons of ice cream! Just kidding. I’m actually thankful I don’t have serious food cravings. (I believe this is due to the nutritional supplements I take. Ask me if you are interested.)
Instead I am learning to trust and rest.
Rest is a weapon
I add that to one of my beliefs.:
All that I need will be provided at the right time. I can trust in provision.
This doesn’t mean I just sit back and do nothing.
Trusting in provision means that I don’t need to fret or worry. I can simply do that next right thing.
Trusting in provision means I lay down mid-day for a rest time. (especially when I am up until after midnight with the doors and windows open to cool the house down and up again at 5 or 6 to open it all back up again trying to get house called to the low 70’s before the heat build up again…heat wave 90’s to 100 in the NW and no A/C).
Trusting in provision means I continue to create summer time memories with the children at the woods and river, or downtown, or with friends.
Trusting in provision means I do my part of create a peaceful home. I have no relief coming through the door at the end of the work day. I am still ‘on’ so I must conserve energy and renew my energy and self throughout the day.
Choosing rest and trust.
A pause and reset.
Moment by moment.
I will be given what I need when I need it.
I can rest and trust throughout my day.